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[Mar. 20th, 2008|03:02 pm] |
SPRING BREAK :]
I'll be spending it in sweet ass Michigan hah.
Working full time at the dealership, looking for a 2nd job,
and hopefully shopping for a prom dress. |
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[Mar. 19th, 2008|10:15 pm] |
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since November life has been pretty hectic.
moved out of my moms into an apartment with mike,
in January I ended the relationship, and ended up hurting my very best friend.
after fighting endlessly I made the decision to leave,
and ive been staying with sara for the past 2 weeks.
me & mike have been starting to talk & get along, but I
still have a lot to work on, if we're ever going to have a normal friendship.
i easily get frustrated, and am very impatient, and I honestly hate it.
i feel like I can't get out of it, once im frustrated or pissed off, instead
of just taking the time to take a deep breath and relax, like i always tell people,
i just yell and swear, and bitch up a storm.
wtf.
for the past 2 weeks ive been living at saras, i spent a lot of them drunk
with her & some really good friends ive made :]
i quit my 2nd job waitressing because the owners were perverts, and the
restaurant was slow. i got a job at I-HOP and then fucked it up by not going in.
i finally got my grades up, and have been going to school everyday.
& I know for a fact I will graduate on time, even though I had a few doubts
for a couple of weeks because of all of my absenses from right after the break up
and then when my mom unfortunately went into the hospital.
the past 2 weeks ive been living here, ive only gone to work on saturdays, so im making
absolutely jack shit money, im negative $200 in my checking account, and im really scared.
i told mike i would still pay rent & bills for the apartment ill never be living
at again, and everyone keeps telling me not to, but thats shitty in my mind.
we got the apartment together, and i said id always be there, and i abandonded
that promise. its gonna be really difficult, but im gonna have to figure out a
way to make it work.
ive decided to stop moping around, and being lazy. so today after my usual nap,
i got up and cleaned some of the house and sat down and did chemistry homework. and
im going to shower soon. im going to work on my scholarship application, that i have
also been waiting last minute to do.
me & derek have been talking, i still dont know whats goin on between us, and have been
questioning whether the things he says are true, and whats going to come from all of
this, and then realized it doesn't matter. if hes lying, and what he says his feelings
are arent true, than what can i do? ill end up getting hurt, but i can't prevent myself
from that by just giving up before letting anything happen.. im not going to question
what is going on between us, and im not going to rush things, im just going to let things
happen, the way they will and leave it at that.
spring break is coming up, and because of the apartment im not going anywhere, hopefully
a trip to chicago with olompia & sara :] that'd be sweet. i need to start making plans
for prom, i haven't even looked at dresses yet ahhh.
hopefull this will be a new beginning. |
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[Jun. 18th, 2007|02:27 pm] |
Well here is Summer of 2007:
My parents are getting divorced.
My Dad moved out, and my boyfriend moved in.
I got a new job at Tom Holzer Ford & a raise at Subway. |
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[Apr. 15th, 2007|10:10 pm] |
Me and Mike are doing perfect :]
We haven't fought in a while.
We drove down to Ohio together on Thursday and stayed at a resort in Sandusky. Inside there was a water park, and it was a lot of fun going on the slides together, and going under the HUGE bucket, we went rock climbing under a little water fall, it was fun :]
It was our first vacation, and even though it was a mini one, it was really cool to spend time with him and sleep together every night :] I love waking up in his arms, it's my favorite.
We were such goof balls, and were acting like little kids the whole time.
We spent wayyy too much money at the arcade and on food, but it was all worth it to both of us.
We just decided that we won't ever go to the Casino's haha :]
Our 6 months is coming up in a week or so, I'm excited, I want to do something really special, but I'm still having trouble coming up with ideas.
I can't believe it's already been half a year, every day with him is always new, and he still gives me butterflies :] He's so amazing, he's my bestest friend :]
I hope everyone had a really good vacation! :] |
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[Mar. 28th, 2007|09:15 pm] |
Today was mine and Mikey's 5 month anniversary :]
I rode my bike 13.5 miles to see him :]
it was totally worth sore legs & butt.
I actually didn't mind it, except when there was no
side walks and I had to walk my bike, andddd when a car
was so close to hitting me I practically felt it's front
end on my leg :X
I love you soo much sweetie, you're amazing,
and these past 5 months have been also! :]
Best Friends Forever! :D |
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[Mar. 12th, 2007|07:05 pm] |
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Me and Mike are temporarily living together and it's awesome :]
We sleep on the couch together and kiss each other good night
Sometimes we wake each other up for another kiss & to tell each other we love the other
I wake up before him and kiss him on the forehead while he sleeps and then get him a glass of orange juice before waking him I make.
I pack him a lunch to take to work, and get all of his clothes and things ready for the day :]
Then we get ready together and he drives me to school
He walks around with me then kisses me before class starts & he goes to work
After work he comes home to me before class starts and when it ends
We watch a lot of movies and hang out together
We laugh, play and love all day long :]
I love it so much, he's my best friend in the whole world. |
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| he's my best friend :] |
[Mar. 4th, 2007|09:59 pm] |
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I just had a fantastic,lazyweekend with Michael.
All of Friday we laid around and just hung out with each other, when I came home my parents left and me and Mike fell asleep until 3 when they came home, and my parents invited Mike to stay the night. I was seriously soo surprised :] It was awesome!
But he had to leave at 7:30 Saturday morning to go to work :[, but he got off 3 hour later and we went to I-HOP and had a fantastic breakfast :] and then laid around naked all day watching TV ;]
Today we went to I-HOP and had another fabulous breakfast, and came back to my house and we both did homework and studied together :]
Then we went back to his house and laid around lazily & naked again :]
we made our traditional Sunday dinner together, and it was really good, Mike did a great job on the Alfredo :] I'm proud of him.
I hope he gets a good grade on his Comp. paper, he put a lot of thought into, even if he did procrastinate a lot :]
I seriously love him so much, I wish there were words to explain it, but I just love him, he's honestly my best friend, and I would do anything in this world for him.
It was soo freakin' cute we were laying in bed today, and he saw a freckle on my chest and he's like aw that's so cute babe :] and then he pointed out another one, and I was like babe we have one in the same spot on our ear but on opposite sides, it's like he is honestly my other half. But I call him my better half 'cuz that's what he really is to me :] |
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[Feb. 28th, 2007|05:03 pm] |
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today is mine and mikes 4 month. I love him :] |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2007|11:01 pm] |
well we said "Somethings gotta go wrong, cuz I'm feelin way too damn good" and well, some things went wrong. We yelled, we got mad, and finally talked it out and made up ;] And things are back to being perfect like they always are. This relationship is so true, so honest and so mature that I know in my heart and mind that things will always be great between us. And "Forever" doesn't scare me, I look forward to it :]
Look at how freakin' cute we are!!!
We take turns paying for dinner, because we both like treating each other.
And we talk about everything & we're always laughing.
He even paints my nails for me! :]
( Doesn't get any better than us :] ) |
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| Christmas! :] |
[Dec. 26th, 2006|12:27 pm] |
Christmas is over, and it was absolutely amazing
I spent all of it with Michael, and I had so much fun with him :]
on Christmas Eve Mike came and picked me up around 11 and we went to 12 Oaks because I still had little things I needed to buy for Christmas, as well as an outfit to wear for his family dinner. So, we went shopping and got everything done finally and I realized I was running late for work. So we left and I ended up being on time to work, but was still pissed that I was even going into work on Christmas Eve. We had about 15 orders of party platters to do (1 party platter = 36 feet) so I ended up making about 540 feet of subs + a ton of customers came in so I would say about very close to 600 feet of subs lame. I was supposed to be out of work by 5 o'clock, and we didn't leave until 6:30. Mike and Lisa's boyfriend came in and actually helped us clean up and close, which I'll probably end up getting fired for, but whatever, it was a holiday for god sakes!
Anyways, me and Mike left, and went back to my house, and I got ready then we drove about a half an hour away to my aunts house to open gifts and spend time with my family. It was really nice to see everyone, my Grandma Judy is a very funny woman, and my Great Grandma Anne, gave Mike a hug and a kiss, along with a Christmas present, it was the cutest thing ever :]
After Mike brought me home I finished wrapping his gifts, and writing another one. I didn't get to bed until 4, and then Shelby woke me up around 7 to open presents from Santa and our parents haha. I got an iPod, and an iHome, along with some other little things, it was sweet, I love the iHome, it's great. After opening gifts I took a shower and laid down, falling asleep longer than I had expected to, so of course I ended up running late.
Mike and his dad came over to pick me up, and then we went to Mikes grandmas house which is actually really close to my house. She is such a sweet lady, she was very nice to me, and had a lot of great things to say :] She held my hand, and gave me a hug, it was the cutest thing ever, honestly. :]
Then we headed back over to Mike's house and we both exchanged gifts.
He opened all of mine first, I got him 2 HIM shirts, 2 CD's: Tupac & Tim McGraw, and then a Drive & Play for his iPod in his car, which he really liked, thank god :]
Then I opened his, and cried. It's a beautiful 3 stone ring which represents past, present and future which is absolutely perfect for us :] It's our promise ring that we will always be together, and I love it so much, and I love him, he is so amazing. I love the ring, but I love the meaning of the ring even more.
We laid around for a while then me and Mike started to get ready and let me tell you Mike was lookin good all dressed up :] We left to go to his Aunt Lindas and when we got there I first met his cousin Phillip who was really nice, and then his Uncle Roger, I went to shake his hand and he dismissed it by giving me a hug and a kiss on the cheek, I thought that was amazing, I was soo nervous to meet all of his family, and they all accepted and welcomed me so quickly, and were all so very nice to me, it was really great. His Aunt Linda also hugged and kissed me, she is such a great woman, we were calling her the Macgyver of Home Living. First we all talked, then had dinner, then took pictures, then opened gifts, then ate dessert. And through all of that, the whole family included me in everything, I loved it, they made me feel very comfortable, and I loved every single one of them :]
This was by far the best Christmas yet.
And it was very special to me because it was mine & Michaels 1st Christmas togethr :], with many, many more to come :]
( Christmas Pictures :] )
Today I'm feeling kind of sick :[
Hopefully I feel better tomorrow, because Mikes family invited me over for a 2nd dinner tomorrow night :] I'm excited, hopefully I won't have to work either. |
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| the love of my life, my best friend, my soul mate. |
[Dec. 20th, 2006|06:24 am] |
he's the kind of guy that i can throw my head back and laugh with, and the only guy that i can curl up in his arms and cry my eyes out to. he's the kind of guy that no matter what i do i will always be perfect in his eyes. he's the only guy that can make me feel happy and sad at the same time. he's the guy that i can always be myself around because when i'm with him nothing else matters. ♥ |
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[Nov. 28th, 2006|10:18 pm] |
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Today was mine and Mikes 1st month anniversary :]
I didn't think I was even going to see him, but when I got home he was parked in front of my house with a single red rose. It was so cute! :D I seriously love him more than any person could ever imagine. We hung out at my house for like an hour, and then he had to finish some things up and then go to class. I was bummin because I was hoping to spend more time with him. So, all of a sudden I'm in some stupid argument with my mom when the phone rings, and it's Mike :] His class got cancelled so he asked if I wanted to hang out, of course I did, and my mom let him come over so he stayed here until 10. We had another good talk, and things seem to be a lot better now. Every time we have a talk, I always feel closer to him, and if it's even possible, I feel like we're even more perfect than before :]
I truly love him.
He's the one
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[Nov. 27th, 2006|08:04 pm] |
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Haven't updated in forever.
I can't seem to be able to put my thoughts, or life into words these days.
Everything is going perfect, everything is absolutely amazing.
Ever since Mike came back into my life, and especially now that we're together, I have such a different outlook on everything. I love my life, and I love everything in it. Even when things don't work out the way I want them to I see it as a learning experience. Live, and learn.
Me and Mike are perfect. There have been a few ups and downs, but after we talk things through, maturely, it seems that we're even closer than before, so I don't regret anything that happens between us. Thanksgiving was our first holiday spent together, he came over and had dinner with my family and I. It was really nice, and it was the perfect holiday to spend together because, he is the one thing I am especially thankful for in my life.
I am also very thankful for my family and friends. Lately I have been able to see who my true friends are, and they are amazing, I love every single one of them more than anything. I would like to thank them for all of their words that have gotten me through hard times, and I cherish the memories we've made together. You know who you are.
But I would like to especially thank Mike, Tina, Brittany, Sara, Becca, Maia, Chelsea, and the Fab Four girls. Without the 11 of you, I truly have no idea where my life would be, or if I would even have one. Each and every one of you are amazing, and I wish the best for you :]
Today SubWay called me :D I have an interview on Thursday, I'm excited, I really hope that I get the job, that would be fantastic.
Tomorrow is mine and Mike's one month, we've come a long way since June when we met again. And I can definately say that he is the one for my hapiness lately. I have never felt this way, and I love it! :D We are absolutely perfect together. I love you so much sweetheart.
I hope that everyone is still keeping Nate in their prayers, I heard he is doing better, which is great. I was so shaken by the incident, I don't even want to talk about it, I just hope that the other kid realizes that Karma is a bitch. I'll leave it at that, he will get what is coming to him.
Hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving/Break, I definately did.
I love you Mikey :] |
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| We're bringin Elvis back ... YUP! :] |
[Nov. 4th, 2006|01:41 pm] |
Last night we performed after a 3 hour practice with Livonia Pom, there was a pretty good amount of people that came. We did the routine twice, as well as Livonia did, then we hooked up with the girls from Livonia and did straight highs .. not so good, haha. But they have great stamina and stiffness for being so dinky. I'm really proud of my sister especially, we're not close at all, but I can definately tell that she has changed, as well as matured and is growing up :] She isn't as shy as she used to be, and she has a lot of great girls to influence her on the team. She is one of the youngest on the team, and is already doing amazing, she is soo dinky compared to the rest of her team, it's cute :]
Mike, Steve and Nick came to the performance last night, I wasn't expecting to see them at all! :] It was such a great surprise, even though I was looking my worst, it was still great to see him :] Coach Kyra actually gave me a curfew because of our early morning practice haha, she seriously told my dad that I had to be home at 10:30, which my dad and even Mike respected and I came home and got some, but not nearly enough shut eye.
Even though my ankle is seriously messed up and I was dead tired and crabby this morning, I just woke up from a nap, and talked to Kyra and I'm soo pumped for tomorrow! I know that we are all going to do amazing at our competition, and I can't wait to blow everyone away. I am really nervous, but we have done so much conditioning so our stamina is really good, and we've done the routine over, and over again, that all of the put into performing it one time will be a piece of cake. Honestly this season has been a lot of hard work, and a lot of fun. I love every single girl on my team, and would do anything for them. Of course there has been some rough times throughout the season, but as a team we overcame them. I have learned so much from everyone, and would like to thank them for everything :]
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[Nov. 2nd, 2006|09:50 pm] |
Things are going great, and then they're not..
Mike is wonderful, not getting to see him everyday is hard at times, but when we do see each other, it's just that much better. I can honestly say that I am head over heels in love with him :] I know it's soon, but that's how I feel, and I love it.
I feel like a zombie in my own life. Every single day is exactly the same, dead tired in the morning, somehow get through school for 6 hours, eat, pom for another 3 hours, boyfriend (sometimes) and sleep. SameShitDifferentDay.
What movie did I see that in? Hmm, I'm not sure.
Whenever I get frustrated or start to complain and become frustrated, I think of how hard Mike works, and gets the things that he wants by following through with his goals, and slowly becomes more successful each day. I have learned so much from him already, he truley makes me a better person day by day. He does what he needs to do, and never has one complaint. I slowly hope to live like that.
I love pom so much, but I feel it wearing down on my body each day. 3 hours seems so long. Our competition is in 2 days. We have a Saturday practice from 6-9am AHHH. I don't even wake up for school at 6, but I have to be there before that.... shoot me! We ran today and yesterday, while I don't complain as much as I did about running, because I can finally finish the mile without stopping, or having a panic attack, it's just a pain in my ass after so much practicing every night. At this point in the season, I feel like we should be perfecting more than conditioning. I trust Kyra though, and it only will make us stronger, and we'll have no regrets, I just hope that we aren't completely exhausted by Sunday.
Tomorrow we are dressing up at school since our competition is Sunday. We also have a performance at 8:15 in the Field House, in our kick costumes (CUTIES) for friends & family. Afterwards, I'm hanging out with Mike for a little bit :]
Saturday after practice Megan is picking me up and we're going shopping again! haha I can't get enough of that girl. I seriously love her so much, she's my soulmate :] |
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[Oct. 29th, 2006|09:36 pm] |
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Today, was great. I relaxed, I got some cleaning done, and just took a lot of time to think about everything going on in my life, and to realize all that I have to be thankful for :]
Tina came over today, and we watched The OC :]
God is that the best show created or what!
Mike came and picked me up today and we went out to dinner at B-Dubs :]
He absolutely wouldn't let me pay for my food, and while I'm not used to it, it's a nice change to not have money be an issue. He made a good point and said that "Money is not an issue, because if you worry about money, you're missing out on other things" which is true. He has such a great outlook on life, and a lot of views on things that I completely respect, and I admire so many things about him. He is just such a great person. After dinner we came back to my house and played LIFE, it is actually a pointless game, but he totally dominated me in it hah. Then we started to play CLUE, but it was 8 so the Flavor Of Love Reunion came on so we stopped. That show is just insane, the woman are all crazy, haha. I can't believe that New York is going to have her own show as well. The men on there are all going to be screwed up, Mike said and they will be, to want to be with her. I don't really understand how people can think that they will find their "soul mate," or the "one person they were meant to be with" because people are put on TV just for publicity, or any of numerous reasons. It just doesn't seem real to me. You can't go looking for love, or looking for a relationship, or it isn't real. Look at me, I was just with Megan hangin out in Novi, when Mike came up in conversation, and we went and saw him, and my life hasn't been the same since. We've had some ups and downs, but I am unbelievably happy with him. Just thinking about him and the things we do puts a smile on my face, he is just great. I love spending time with him, and listening to him talk.
I had a great weekend, everything is exactly how I've wished for it to be, for what seems like so long.
KICK COMPETITION = 1 WEEK! :] |
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[Oct. 1st, 2006|04:49 pm] |
last night was so much fun! :]
and i have the best friends in the world :D! |
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[Sep. 27th, 2006|06:13 am] |
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He's definately a sweetheart :D
3 more days!
I'm pumped! |
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[Sep. 21st, 2006|10:13 pm] |
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Well I haven't updated in a week. A lot of stuff has happened that I actually don't feel like talking about, I just hope everything goes okay with my dad, he is my absolute best friend and if anything bad were to happen to him, I honestly have no idea what would happen to me. I don't think I could go on without him in my life. He is the most amazing man I have ever met.. ever.
I went to Cambridge on Tuesday with a big envelope filled with the letters of "H-O-M-E-C-O-M-I-N-G" in red, and then typed out "with me ?" and my name on a heart, and I took it up to Pat :] He said yes, I'm really excited, that kid is honestly such a sweetheart, I know we'll have a good time.
Greys started tonight, I missed that show a lot it is seriously amazing.
I need to get a job, but I don't have enough time to work with school and pom, it's really annoying. I need money.
My dad bought me a car today! :D
A '96 Thunderbird, it's a pearl color, and it looks really new, and it's very clean, and nice I love it! :] I haven't even taken drivers ed yet haha, so my dad will probably just drive it to work since the car he drives there doesn't have heat. This car is seriously going to be my baby :] It's giving me a lot more motivation to do good in school, because if I don't wellll then that car will be in the driveway for quite some time.
Tomorrow morning I'm going to breakfast with Tina :]
I'm excited, I hope Pat comes to see me at lunch tomorrow, I miss him.
Tomorrow is Friday!
Thank godddd. Good Luck tomorrow boys :] |
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[Sep. 7th, 2006|08:39 pm] |
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me and an "old friend" started talking again today.
as much as ive wanted for us to be friends, i have a weird feeling in my stomach, i think im just used to being let down, and hurt, everytime i try to make things normal between us.
we haven't talked in quite a while, except when i was drunk and made a fool out of myself.
but i know we've both changed a lot at least i have. and i think we're both more mature now and can handle this well.
i think it might be good for us to be friends again though.
School is already a bitch.
I couldn't even get myself out of bed this morning.
My classes are pretty cool, I have good people in most of them.
English teacher is kind of weird, math is for sure a dyke she is the most butch woman ive ever seen, and government is just a tool, i laugh at his jokes because i feel bad that he isn't really funny and no one laughs, i think it makes him feel good about himself. my building trades class at the career center is all boys, and for people who are saying that i took it just cuz i knew it would be all boys, you're wrong. my auto class had 1 other girl in it and i did really well. it seems like it'll be fun, but a lot of hard work especially for me since i have absolutely no prior knowledge of this stuff. but that is exactly how it was last year in auto, and i had the highest grade in the class because i worked hard for it.
this year is off to a good start, im staying away from the drama. and have decided not to hate anyone or have enemies, because it's a waste of time. so dont start anything with me this year, it'll be pointless cuz ill shake it off really quickly, you wont be worth my time.
Pom was rough today, Kyra walked out on us 10 minutes early.
I was kind of upset because I did really good today, I finished running my mile with some of the first few people and didn't slow down or stop at all. When we were working on kickline i was trying to think of ideas, and when we did the routine i actually punched and tried my hardest, like we all should every time. But she said it was horrible and didn't even want to watch us anymore. Everyone staid and just yelled at each other it was really bad. I feel like it's all directed towards me because I'm one of the new girls. I hope we do better at the football game tomorrow, yesterdays soccer game was terrrrrrible. |
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